re: the universe as a readout

turns out that the universe as a readout idea has already been thought of - like when i was a year old. i was just listening to the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy when it dawned on me - that's my idea!
:(
but hey - life keeps moving on.
ok - time for beddy

the week just keeps getting better :)

granted - monday sucked. but tuesday was deffinitely better - and now at the end of wednesday i'm really happy :)
just got back home from watching the old Dune movie at my parents'. and my gf liked it! :D
hella cool :)
i just need to find the looong version somewhere, on dvd if i can. i'm already asking my gf if she wants to see the remake and then the children of dune.
its been a while since i first saw that movie in its entirety - on acid :)
that same night i also saw the new version. and i've seen the old version a few times since, and it still reveals something new to me every time i see it. i think i'd give partial credit for liking the movie to acid's "awe and wonder" effect, but every time i've seen it after (straight), that's only been reinforced. one day i've got to find the time to read the book - there must be so much more in there than even the "looong" version of the movie is able to convey! hehe - i wonder if there's a version of it on tape or cd somewhere...
i used to read so much, i loved it! but since i started working - there's just been no time. working and partying. and watching tv. and got a car. and loans. and a gf. now i dont even have time to party. hardly ever at all. and the only reading i ever do is online. or tech manuals.
whine whine - bitch bitch.
this really cool portuguese guy Antonio who's about 50 sometimes starts talking about his problems, like many other people, but then he stops himself and says "ah, but thats my problems - u dont need to hear about that". and one time he threw in "in my language we say 'but lets talk about better things. so whats the price of a funeral these days?'" dude's hilarious. he'd recently moved here with his wife and 2 kids pursuing a dream, an adventure - to live in the beautiful experiment in true multiculturalism that canada is. but its tough to start from scratch. at 50. but he's glad he's pursuing his dream - despite their difficulties and disillusions. a runaway mid-life crisis? perhaps - but what an effect! what an adventure! and he can still decide to go back home if things dont work out here. and he will be that much richer a person. very interesting and inspiring dude to listen to.
ok - time for beddy ;)

pms

so it turns out it WAS pms after all. my gf got her period 2 days ago - brutal. and i can tell she still tries NOT to take midol and in the middle of being in pain she said that she would still not go on the pill to regulate and ease her menstruation. its her zero-drug upbringing.
we havent really talked about the letter she left me - the one about how we wont continue together if i decide to keep using drugs. what a dirty sounding phrase. pot and acid / shrooms. and i havent even done acid or shrooms for ever. cant find acid anywhere and shrooms i've had very disappointing results with.
well - time to go and get my sweetie her breakfast - at least she is eating something :)

happy work

i need to completely change my relationship with work. presently i friggin hate going to work. perhaps i was raised like that - grew up with the understanding of work as some sort of a chore, worse than most chores because u must do it all the time and under fairly strict rules. but it'd just occurred to me, while i was having a shower, that, to someone doing some other sort of work, my job might seem pretty cool. installing a whole access control system into a tower, actually 2! and all the alarms. i get to do a lot of the planning - its up to me how its gonna go! and then at the end of it all i get to see people using it all the time, and this big, complicated system works - and i installed it! :D the bitch is the time constraints - the boss wants to maximize profits, and so he's also cheap in very annoying ways. but fuck him - i think it will be good for me to start taking pride in my work - i'll make sure everything is as good as it can be, and will work awesome :) unfortunately these cheap cunts wanna spend the absolute minimum amount of money possible - but i gotta keep pushin my way. and maybe if they like how well i get things done, then maybe they'l allow me a little extra freedom, maybe they'll spend a little more money on my projects... and if not then i'll just take lots of pix of my work and have a portfolio to show prospective future employers :)
and it should simply make me feel better about going to work every day - i'll be psyched to get there and make every day a work of art, a labour of love... :)
man - i didnt think it was possible to write so tenderly about work :D
i am a sick pervert - getting this excited about work :P

Yum! :)

ha!

riiiight - just take the water pump off...
*grumble grumble*
to take the water pump off u must take the alternator off - check section 10 or whatev. so i go there, find it and it says - to take alternator off, u must take the power steering out! ok - that p'd me off a wee bit. many hours later i finally took off both. then it turned out i had to take the tensioner pulley bracket off too. but not before i tried hard to pry the stupid pump off - to no avail. the tensioner bracket had a bolt hidden underneath. well- i finally did manage to get the waterpump off - hope that was the only problem, although i know it is not likely :(
ok - now to bed i said! :D


the talon - being gutted out

still wrenching... :)

finally got the timing belt off - now for the water pump! :D

then try to recombobulate ebryting back together - wonder how long thats gonna take...
i already know i messed up the grooves on the crankshaft pulley with the friggin' chain-wrench - so i'll have to fix that up before putting it back on. hope it can be done w/o having to buy a new one.


i wonder how many ppl are blogging about the Baslan massacre today. sad day. and this shit happens all over the world regularly. i wonder how this is going to affect things are in russia. i heard on tv and agree that russia is going to invest even more in the military, and even more money is going to be pulled away from everything else. so a poorer, more militarised russia? this cant be good. there's probably gonna be a lot of attacks on innocent muslims and even "darker looking" russians. and all because of a handful of desperate, misguided, stupid people. i imagine they all felt justified in what they were doing. their families have probably been severily hurt and decimated by the russian - chechen conflict. they've likely lost children of their own. but they should have been smarter than that. they should have understood that no one in their right mind will release people from jail who will create even more grief the first chance they get. holding children hostage will only make u more enemies. whatever faith they are - their god is supposed to be a merciful god, who does not condone violence. armed conflict does not solve anything - unless maybe if ur an overwhelmingly huge army that will effortlessly thwart their enemy - but even then... usually change takes time. but if ur impatient and arrogant - then maybe you should be killed before u do anybody any harm.
i'm just ranting. but i guess i'm a bit shocked. in times like this i just try to think that even though horrible things like this happen - humanity just keeps ploughing ahead. we should all do our part and try to make this world better for our kids and their kids - but when shit happens, i guess we cant let it stop us. emotions are such a detriment so often. ppl pay great attention to how they're feeling. i bet that's the single biggest reason for drug addiction. including alcoholism. and cigarettes. possibly coffee. and sugar. chocolate probably forming part of it.

did i mention that i hate stupid people? cant really kill'em tho - might as well make them work and make my life a little more comfortable. i think i can see society clearly separating in the future into 2 classes - stupids and smarts. i wonder if eventually we'll become 2 species...
well - there's smarts and smarts. but i guess there's been an upper class of ppl for a long time - all the old dynasties and noble families - they've been having poor people work for them for generations upon generations. if ur family stays consistently at a standard of living higher than the average, *especially* in the face of adversity - then i'd say chances are good that ur DNA is predisposed for that higher standard of living, above the average human. is it gonna get to the point where we're like the alien civilisation from "alien nation" - i forget what species they were supposed to be. maybe even more so. like humans and monkeys.

i'm yawning something fierce here - maybe i should hit the hays already..? but i still wanna take out that water pump - that shouldnt be that hard - i just have to do it. and then shower. and THEN hit the sack.
well - best git on it :)

*still* wrenching on the car again...

the crankshaft pulley bolt wont come off - cant turn it! :(
i've been dousing it with WD-40 , then this liquid wrench wanna be whatchacallit. for some reason the instructions said to take one of the engine mounts off and THEN try to get that friggin crankshaft bolt off - well - the whole engine moves! so - back on the mount goes.

i got a digital camera! :D tooo sweet! :D bought it from my friend marcin for $65 just the other day - i rike it a rot! :D
goin' be postin' me sum pitchers n'this here blawg perty soon! :D

but first i gotta find out from my gf how its done :D

ok - back to the car.

but i'm happy i've already cleaned up so much today! :)

ok - before all this happiness goes - i best git to it now :)

wrenching on the car again...

or trying not too :)
feeling slightly apprehensive about making sure the #1 piston is at TDC, taking off the left engine mount while making sure the engine is supported by "something" from underneath that at the same time wont damage the oil pan, then discombobulating ebryting on the LHS of the engine - including all the pulleys and timing belt cover, which will include using the mysterious chain wrench to hold the crankshaft pulley while i loosen the bolt that holds it in place - all the while making sure i dont actually move the cranshaft from TDC, taking the timing belt off - to finally get to take out the water pump which i *think* is where my water leak is at. then put on the new timing belt, re-combobulate ebryting and hope to hell it all works afterwards. THEN i'll see if the elusive oil leak resurfaces - i dont want to lose 3/4 of my oil on the side of the highway again. why the fuck is this goddam blog eating some letters while i'm writing it??!! grr.
well - les'go'n'git to it... :0

bleh...

man - its like 11pm - life sux - my gf is on a downer again, unsure of our relationship, went for icecream with a neighbour back home with whom she almost got in a relationship back in the day. i guess i have doubts about us too, but its always harder to be dumped than to dump, sucks not to be in control. plus i'm tired so everything sucks that much extra.
my gf just came back online - guess i'm gonna talk to her.
talking to my gf right now - sounds like the icecream with neighbour didnt go too well...
oh - icecream and movie was fine - but then he said he was going to sleep cause he was tired, and so she left and then a bit later he drove off in his car somewhere - didnt feel like sleeping anymore? maybe.
anywho - my gf is sounding much more positive and sounds more committed to our relationship again. i hate rollercoasters like this. maybe one day we will have to finally decide that our respective ways of living are unacceptable in some way to one another. well, i hope we could remain friends - but that happens so rarely. but i do care for her a lot and want to be there to help when she needs it.

today was such a wasted day. yesterday i went to my boss' barbecue - many hours and vodka shooters later i must have passed out in the bathroom after puking my guts out. and i guess the boss and probably one of the senior tech's must have carried me back to the living room to the couch. yup - that surely must have won me their respect and admiration.
oh well - live and learn.
so today was spent mostly on recuperating from yesterday. i watched most of the 5th element - which i'd bought recently. and read all of my gf's blog for the month.
well - time to get going - i wanna sleep at my gf's place in new west - i should probably still do the dishes there, like i said i would. we'll see.

ideas from like 1999... :O

an ellipse is just a distorted circle (and vice versa), but together with a square and a triangle, they're all "outlines", so what? why are these "the basic geometrical shapes", who thought of them first, and are they in some way universal to humans? if these ideas of geometrical shapes were never introduced into a society, how would they evolve? what would their thinking process be like? would they come up with this shit on their own? who would? any particular type of people? i'd love to find out how humans learned of geometrical shapes. they dont seem to really occur in nature. never seen a triangle or a square. i think there's some hexagonal column looking rocks out there - this certain type of rock cools into shapes like that when cooling from a liqid state or something. but i dont think there's even a circle out there in nature. actually - the sun and the moon...


a sine wave is a circle but with time passing forward ? a circle is a sine wave when time moves back and forth. the time must go forth only by as much as the amplitude (height) of the sine wave, and back as soon as the wave reaches the level of origin. forth again when the the time of origin is reached. would it work the same if the point of origin was not "on the left"? (up, down?) an "infinity" shape (8) would be reached when time starts from it's own centre and then backs up by it's radius. circular time? how do you move time? how do you move space? you don't - you move within it. can we go any direction in space? if so, why not in time? maybe we do. who said we're moving foreward in time? maybe it's relative. just why did we think it's foreward? maybe one of our properties is to move like this and that in time and space? what if other beings moved like this and that in time, but not in sapce? or some limited way in time but not in space at all, or just "foreward" in space. how do you meet somebody that travels back in time? depends, maybe at what speed theyre going. maybe not - maybe u'd only exist "at the same time" for such an infinitessimally short period of time that u'd never see them... i can imagine speed in space and time, just like distance, but what about direction? seems infinite w/ space, but bi-directional in time. for me.
any ideas? comments?


if god exists, then does he use the decimal system? as implied by the 10 commandments...
or was the decimal system created because since god gave us 10 commandments then that number - like everything else of god - must be perfect. why do we put a punctuation mark in math after 3 digits? why not aftre 4 or 2 or whatev?
have the hebrews been using the decimal system at the time of the emergence of the 10 commandments?

first blog for tommy! :D

i read some of my gf's bloggage and i've finally decided to go nike on its booty and just do it! :)

i plan to post a crapload of "stuff" i'd written in the past but never had the patience to actually build a website or nuthin'.
La-Z :(
its not a sin - its a friggin' horrible affliction - it makes life suck; it's the stuff nightmares are made of
*puke*


thank you

crypto-theorising... :)

by my friend with the breath that stings the eyes...
to decrypt a message, one (well, probably more like a team) will probably start by trying to match the frequency of certain characters in the encoded message to the average frequency of characters in any other type of writing. there's also the frequency of 1,2,3, etc letter words, and really how many are there? unless u went and had ppl trying to send a message resort to only a somewhat limited vocabulary, and have a number represent each word. and these numbers could be written down using some obscure numbering system, like based on 17's or something. hehe, like hexa-decimal+1 :D the language used by the encoder would have to be considered. i wonder how much a message in say, french, sent from an english speaking operative to another would confuse things for someone trying to decrypt it. is this something usually suspected, or at least usu taken into consideration, by the decryptor? so there's the question of language. then perhaps the question of content subject - probably different frequencies of letters tend to occur in messages regarding different subjects. or maybe not..? then there's languages like chinese or other such non-alfabetical script. there could be a system of a character representing words, or just syllables. perhaps even a character could be used instead of writing out a very often used sentence. i wonder if for codes that simply exchange character for character, if there is usually a general "formula" that one could apply to be able to change back every character in a message coded in a such a way. that would be pretty complicated to try and decipher. or to make up. then messages could perhaps be written on a computer and a coding computer program could for example save a text or even pic message as pic of a sheet of paper with the message written on it. then it could be transmitted out - the enemy wounldt know what they'd be looking at - they'd be looking for a meassage when they should be trying to put together a picture, and THEN try to decipher whats written on it. but that's complicated and i wonder if it wouldnt require too much computing power and time for an in-the-field operative. hehe - this picture idea reminds me of johny mnemonic :) it might be cool to be a cryptographer :)

modularity, universe as a readout, common knowledge, etc.

just yesterday I had this idea in the shower that life, or maybe better: the universe, is but a complex "graphic" representation of some machine's parameters. Like nowadays maybe if ur monitoring a machine's operation, such as a car, u look at the different gauges and lights, or if ur rich ur looking at ur LCD display that tells u everything: coolant temperature, oil pressure, charging system voltage, speed, RPM's - everything. Well, maybe the universe could be such a "readout", but with so many parameters, that all these dimensions and ways of expressing them are necessary. just think of the being that's able to "read" all this stuff and understand it... first maybe simple things, like the distances between objects: so and so much on the vertical axis, so much on the horizontal and this much in depth. But then the objects themselves, so many of them, and of so many different kinds: a rock has its parameters, its describable by a mathematical equation, or actually a number of them, something for weight, something for density, something for volume and shape, something for texture, something for color. But I guess for something as un-complex u'd have an equation that's realtively small, esp as compared to plants or animals. Still, every object would probably have its own "equation", because it has its boundaries, physical limits. Hehe - unless rocks have dimensions to them we do not know about because it would be virtually impossible for us to detect. Hehe, like looking at an iceberg floating: looks like an ice mountain but actually all u see above water is only one third of the whole thing. Hehe, maybe rocks only seem dead to us because in so far as our senses detect, there's nothing more to them. But maybe in reality they're part of a larger "system" or equation, or "iceberg". And on our side of the "water" only this dead rock sticks out :) but that's a whole other discussion. Ok, so the universe is one big equation that's composed of all these other sub-equations, which are practically like modules. Like for example a person is one module, or sub-equation. With its own sub-equations, or modules, like for all ur physical characteristics, and modules that would be connected to all these physical modules, like for example the equation for movement would modify the equations governing/describing the physical aspects of a person. Another equation would have to do w/ feeling, another w/ thinking. Some equations would be more "powerful" than others, in terms of how much they would be able to affect other equations. Hehe, so we're a readout for a machine, and we delude ourselves that we have free will :D of course it would be more "comfortable" if I phrased it like our universe IS the real thing, and how its cool that it could all be described by one great equation, composed of many smaller ones. Hehe, but then again, if we are just a readout, or an equation for something, but this equation is so complex that it had to be encoded as particles, which would be woven into atoms, which would be knitted into molecules, which would be sawn into for example DNA. Which would be braided into persons, which would be modified by ideas, and other such curious "interactions" of other molecules in this person. Imagine: the whole universe is a readout, and someone just made it not w/ the purpose of writing a useless, extremely complex equation, but beacause they needed this equation or readout to describe something else. And they look at it all the time, reading it, all the parameters, all the sizes, and shapes and colours, and interactions, and ideas we think we have - its all part of a "picture" to them. Hehe - to make sure their galactic toaster oven doesn't burn out! :) we're the readout for the most complex toaster oven ever! It needs a whole universe to describe just whats going on with it! :) krazy... :) but ya, the general idea i suppose being that something can be described or represented as something else, perhaps for the purpose of simplification, or perhaps just because we are not yet able to see an electron, but we can sorta describe its bahaviour thru math equations or models we build etc.
but back to speaking of modules, I was also recently thinking of the modularity of language, how it started probably w/ more concrete thoughts, for concrete objects. Like the word "stone" describes only a stone. No ambiguity. U may not be able to see one but u know what it is. U may not even be able to draw one: but from that single word you infer a whole list of things u know about a stone: what makes a stone. The word is like an equation that describes the object. Like a module. Possibly a stereotype. When u think of the word "stone", u can probably think of it in concrete terms, like what it can be used for, what one might feel like, its size. But ur able to hold this "module" in ur attention, work with it. And so, more complex things were brought into light: feelings and other abstract ideas suddenly arent fleeting thoughts that u don't know what to make of, because u can hold onto their idea. U can even communicate this to someone else. But this someone else still has to be similar enough of an equation that parameters ur trying to convey are not alien to them: ur equation must be similar to their equation, so that the equation of an idea u had can fit similarly into their equation. Silly way to think about all this, eh? :) anyways, as u can see, I'm jumping from idea to idea, none of it is realy crystalized yet, or nicely "modularized" :), but I think I got some definite "clouding", or densening going on, like when jello starts to "cloud" or whatev? :) thought u might enjoy some of tomek's theorising once in a while :) another idea I had recently was that people keep having good ideas all the time, but probably most of those ideas "die out", or get "lost", b/c they don't get the necessary dissemination/propagation to reach a "critical mass" as it were, meaning, to be held by a large enough number of minds worldwide so that this idea doesn't die out, but is worked with, thought of, maybe even built upon or improved. fuck, it can even be ridiculed or whatever, as long as its talked about, it should catch on somewhere eventually if there's anything to it, right? :) Hehe - would be kinda cool to be able to say that an idea that has reached the status of "common knowledge" was originated by you... hehe, what about an idea that revolutionized something - sweeeeet! :D Like kopernik (none of this copernicus shit) - before this dude, it was common knowledge that the earth is flat. Motherfucker just went and proved them all wrong! Of course it took a few hundred years to sink in, but still :) now its common knowledge that the earth is round, or elliptical or whatev - a roughly spherical shape. I wonder what the next "big" idea will be... But anyhow, so if u want to spread an idea or something, if that tickles ur fancy, then u wanna try and give it maximum, possibly global coverage, yes? [hehe, or just by-pass the "hierarchy" and send it into outer space right away - maybe that'll finally convince "them" that there is some intelligent life on earth :)] Well, welcome to the age of the internet! Dudes have been playing w/ disseminating stuff for a while, but it seems most of it is crap = spam. Seems like they're trying to just be seen by everyone, and sometimes it works pretty good - like those emails that claim that the "make a wish" foundation is donating 6 cents for every forward of this email towards a child's heart transplant operation. It gets u, ur like - ok, I'll foreward this, out of pity or whatever works. So the messenger is pretty good, it gets disseminated to many people. But its ultimately empty - no real message to it, no value, at least not in my eyes. But if something in that format were used, but with a payload consisting of a cool idea, then if that got into many minds, and some ppl talked about it, then that would be awesome! But how do u do it? What, just email a dissertation to everybody and their friggin dog? I suppose some ppl would read it, but I don't think we'd be talking anywhere near the magnitude of critical mass. So what, disguise it? Hehe, maybe that's what these spam emails all are, and here I am, thinking I thought of a cool new idea :D maybe all these seemingly annoying spam emails have some kinda message embedded in them, maybe pieces of, so maybe all these pieces are just sorta laying dormant in all these minds, but one day the pieces are gonna start coming together into whatever ideas they were designed to be by whoever designed them. For whoever knows what purpose. Hehe - its the illuminati! Hilarious :D I just sometimes wonder if just adding ideas to the "collective" before attempting to screen them for possible future misuses is a good idea, or should I try and be a bit responsible? Of course one cant be expected to foresee everything, but if something jumps out at you, then perhaps telling the world how to make an atom bomb out of ingredients u'd find in a kitchen would be inadvisable.

neo-christianity?

I wonder: it sorta seems to me like Jesus was right after all, and I mean completely, in the most pure way: should we reject ALL violence, or just all anger etc? if violence were rejected, it would be possible for all people practicing this to be killed if someone really tried. hmm - what then. A brute force u cannot reason with. But would it happen? Or would those not practicing but still normal be moved to defend those attacked? What about tibet? What about all those easily brain-washed, stupid, materialistic "spencers"? so is there no way to achieve world peace and peace for all people so that no one hates, no one hurts? But for example if I choose to at least try and love my neighbour, even if he fucks me over, then perhaps that means that I wont perpetuate the injustice, violence? B/c in the "human" way, its almost expected to try and win or get some kinda revenge (translates to WIN anyways). But then this person will be hurt and they'll be hurting others or back at you. So maybe non-aggressive behaviour? If I could get myself to understand and accept that someone hurt me b/c they're lesser than me, or maybe not lesser but just simple, human, then perhaps I wouldn't be hurting? And then if I don't feel pain then I wont try to get some kinda revenge? But to be the devil's advocate: how will the asshole ever learn? Hehe - is it genetic, so that they cannot learn? What then? Selective killing? DNA manipulation? Maybe ppl can learn to channel their aggression and all other emotions in constructive ways. Perhaps it seems high-winded or whatev, farfetched, sci-fi like, but whats the alternative? Perpetuating this "humanity"? this "civilization"? I wonder if we can transcend this, get past this. How many of us can? It feels like theres something to be said for genes, like some ppl wont be able to learn or become good, so that the whole world can be good. Maybe by now this sounds like too much something granol-ish/christian. If that's a problem for some ppl to even listen to the idea, what if it were presented in scientific terms? Still - I don't think even half the ppl would actually assume this way of life. And I'm talking western world here - not to even mention all the countries etc where all ppl know is hate and mistrust etc. how do u get them to break thru their barriers? Perhaps for some this would be easier, but I donno if many. But it perhaps is something to at least give a few shots at. Start thinking about this. So whats rejectable and whats ok? But if there's a will there just might be a way. Just b/c its easier for us to come up w/ reasons against this, just because of the world we've been brought up in, doesn't mean that there isnt a myriad of reasons FOR it, reasons that don't jump right at you because that's not the way we've been taught to think most our lives.

musings - patterns, etc.

And now, coming to u live, from hotbox central itself, tomex brain presents a show the critics would rage about - if they ever found out about it... :)
- it's... PATTERNS! :)
Ya, sa patterns in the universe. Patterns are "happenings" or events that are somehow distinguishable from the uncountable other "events" happening all the time. The vast majority of them are so minute in magnitude, duration, mass or whatever other values it might possibly be measured in or that u can think of that they indeed do form what we so inaptly call "the fabric of time". And space :) Whatever values might "this" be measured in :) Perhaps it is the "bunches" of these events at the same time, space or whatever other value blah blah blah... so these bunches (numbers) of events, or perhaps just their sheer "magnitude" makes them noticeable to us as "patterns". To us, a pattern is something repeating. I imagine it as a wave. Just floating thru space. No beginning, no end, no time - just wave :) Such a pattern can then be identified as a radio wave, sound wave, light, then matter...? Then there's the bahaviour. Which is what brought me here, to this computer tonight in the first place :) Behaviour could be just another "wave" or pattern. We often think, or at least I did until recently, of behaviour as a means for survival. Competing behaviours would surface and the ones that would be the most practical in the given environment would often or at least sometimes permit the specimen to survive, and so in a looo0ng time there would be more specimens like this one among his species, eventually perhaps replacing the "old model" completely :) Behaviours that would not facilitate the survival of the specimen would not resurface easily in the species, as they would not promote the survival of the specimen until and thru its period of life when it can procreate best. Even more instantly doomed would be the behaviour that would work against the life/survival of its "host"/specimen. But then we of course should also start talking magnitude and interconnectivity/ interdependence. If a behaviour would be relatively insignificant in magnitude as compared to a "winner" behaviour that would be happening at the same time, then the "not-so-good" behaviour will now have a chance of survival inside the host, thanks to the "super-behaviour" - ta, ta da da!!! :) Another "dramatic" twist would be a bahaviour that would have bad effects, which are bad because they're bad (:D), but it would actually play a key role in the creation/maintenance of another, "winner" behaviour. So that without this loser behaviour the present winner behaviour would not survive, sending all the members of its host species to certain death and extinction... :) Of course until the next real key winner of a behaviour comes along to fill the position with the same or better effect and less cost - efficency is sometimes key, and in this crazy and chaotic universe of ours its always better to be safe than sorry, esp when u got something as important to worry about as the survival of a whole species - this is a whole institution, no, a way of life (!) we're talking about here! :) Then this new hot-shot of a behaviour would just put the old-man behaviour into retirement, taking his job. Isn't this also happening to our world - production/work wise? Production, competition, efficiency! Work more for less and being replaced constantly by newer, better models :) it's a big antfarm - that's all. The guys at the top think they're the shit, that they're runing the show. Just like the ant on top of the antfarm. But really, u have the antarm in a box in ur room. U control when the sun rises in it and when it sets, when they have food and water and when they don't. when natural disasters strike...But then the box was manufactured by some other company, that probably both ur parents work for, and that owns the bank that owns the mortgage to ur house. Whose in an ant farm now, huh? Or maybe a rat maze :) but the task is perhaps more complicated looking, or even just simply different - its not find the cheeze, its LIFE! :) (batteries not included) But then the banks, financial corporations, companies, governments - they're just different "manifestations" of behaviours or patterns - that's the way the're made. For example the institution of "the military" is perhaps but a pattern somehow made up of the effect of having a collective of such and such behaviours occuring in their hosts, which were perhaps formed by yet other patterns, or patterns of emotions, occurrences, events, or whole matrices thereof that happened in their pasts. So these men that behave somehow similar enough that they form an organization - or something that was able to mutate into one. But it might not only be the "nurture" that's at work here, in the formatorium of behaviours - I think nature works here as well :) out bodies, our cells - all patterns of pattrens of patterns... where does it end? doesn't seem like theres an answer to that - or at least not one we'd understand. So perhaps egocentrism is the way to go, or at least to start? U start to explore from urself - u have at least that as a point of reference. Everything can be but in reference to u - all that is u: ur physical location, the time ur occupying, ur body, size, gender, ur own knowledge and behaviours. Later u learn to see things in reference to others (some ppl never seem to learn tho...:D). So where was I trying to lead to - ya, something that goes like this: life, no, scrap life, the unvierse - the way it is, exists, is but a bunch of patterns, and patterns of patterns, etc. it is not the survival of the fittest - its just that we see survival as winning, or whatever - something positive, because (I think this is a loop) - a bunch of behaviours came upon a species, behaviours that had to be made possible firstly by their genetic material, and secondly by their surroundings. The "medium" they existed in, their "world". Some of this bunch of behaviours made their hosts survive relatively longer and better than the rest. And so they outbred and outlived them. Now that "looks" like a behaviour or pattern or something has survived, outlasted, won - against the other ones. But the fact of the matter is that the behaviours are not conscious and did not make a decision wheteher to occur or not. They just did. And that had the effect of some of them making the host live and what we call "thrive". its an illusion. These hosts living longer and perhaps later "instead" of the other ones - all this survival of the fittest is nothing more than just another pattern - a happening, an event... there's no success or failure to it - one species survives, the other dies - its just an event, devoid of any "emotion" or real value. And perhaps when the events that "allow" this universe to exist will cease to exist or change into something else, their effect as well will cease to exist, or will change. Patterns and patterns upon patterns of patterns - a whole sea of them, a whole universe! :)
Hope u had fun - I was amused by putting in some funny stuff in there (hehe - or at least funny to me:D) ok - later! :)



Wlasnie mialem pomysl: zamiast sie rozpisywac and be concerned w/ style, etc, - what a lot of today's people (w/ short attention span or very little time) seem to want, is very condensed and to-the-point news/info. Why not grab their attention w/ headline type deals, then below have short, super-condensed paragraphs w/ just the most vital info on each headline, and then underneath all of those, have even more expanded paragraphs. NO REPEATED INFO though!!!An idea might be to perhaps have some words/ideas hyper-linked to more/other paragraphs, so that u could choose exactly which tangents (?) of the info u want to explore, allowing to go even to the point of being able to read the references themselves and the works cited, and being able to read the paragraphs of the works cited and even the whole books, articles whatever :)


Cool theory:If there was a different universe for every single possibility, then there would be a great number of them. :)Travel into the past poses the paradox of killing urself when u were younger, which, if u were connected to ur past, would reach u and nullify ur time travel in the first place, therefore restoring life to ur younger self. so, would u be stuck forever at the moment when ur trying to kill ur younger self? Would something like that be the end of ur particular universe? It would not be possible for that reality to advance anymore. A dead end.Unless it were possible that changing ur past would NOT affect u in the future at all. How would that be possible?Perhaps if we consider that we're living in one of almost infinite number of universes. Paralel universes? Perhaps looking at time and space as moving thru time and space (esp time) in a linear fashion is not the way. What if "reality" which we "move/travel" in, is "carving" out a "path" as it were. Or maybe a better explanation would be that "our" reality thru time is just a "path" carved in a vast matrix of possible "paths". A sea of possibilities.Hmm. I wanted to try and describe the possibility of traveling thru "the sea of possibilities" but in a scenario where each possible universe is like a layer or island, but they're all caked on top of one another and where u "travel" and by ur actions u make a worm-like tunnel thru this cake of "parallel" universes. "Tunnel" seems like an appropriate word because we need a "path", something elongated, to illustrate the passage of time. Too bad human imagination is so limited :(So then it would be interesting if u were to travel back in time (and space to if desired/possible), making ur own tunnel of life/experience/reality sort of loop back... but perhaps if not thinking so linearly, ud go back to the time but trying to go to the same space, u'd start carving another path from that point in time (and space?), but thru different "universes" or possibilities. It would be a new thing because now "u from the future" would be in it. As opposed to ur original one. So that would mean that its not possible to return to ur own past, at least not exactly the same one, b/c as soon as u'd try to enter it, u'd be creating another "possibility". This is just "a" model, something I think is possible, but who knows what experience will show is the real deal. Hehe - or which path of possibility we'll go thru :)

thinking, reality, evolution

here's an excerpt of some stuff i 'd briefly mused about once upon a time, that i find interesting :)


so "nobility" could be described as "do unto others as you'd have done to you (especially if you were in the " others' " position)". it'd be ql to be like in a bunch of little groups and clubs, but globally. the biggest one would be making sure of the survival of the race. then you have the groups whose idea of the "race" differs froim other groups'. (then again, there's no guarantee that a goal should be reached (looking at it objectively), just because a group of people think so. maybe that group of people are all wrong, and that's what they have in common. it's their common flaw.) you have groups who have goals that indirectly, or even directly oppose each other. people have different ideas about different stuff. their particular experiences and "thinking" processes necessarily (?) differ. even if we all did co-operate in some utopian reality - to what end? to just live happily ever after. "our goal is our best self interest". or maybe "the continuation of us" would be more basic. that's some pretty depressing shit. why is it depressing. what kind of a "behaviour-thingy" is that - depression? what's it's purpose? some built-in flaw? can we survive it? if so, how long is it gonna take us to get rid of it completely? will we ever? probably not. i suppose there's some value in keeping at least a trace of even the weirdest "stuff", in case it may one day come in handy. should we try and consciously wipe out these "bad" values, traits, etc? but then, how far can you trust our logic? how can you know what you don't know? the remote possibility that a situation may come where depression will prove key to our survival. why am i citing survival as the utmost goal? for some reason it feels "cheap", or shallow or something. so again, it looks like everything is stupid, hopeless, and there's no way of knowing what's true and what's not, what's really important and what just seems so, who is right and who is wrong. i guess individuals with doubts as to the importance of the survival of their species are the species' weak link, and may eventually go into relative extinction. is there a reason why we die? how much truth is there to the life longevity in the bible early humans? on one hand it seems weird (among other adjectives) to design a life form that would "have" to fail in so many years or before, with all kinds of possible variations as in everything. why can't we keep healing and living? but again - with what purpose? maybe with the same one as lots of people live today - to amuse yourself.

stun lasers :o

apparently they can immobilize u with a laser now...
:O

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Tommy!

Tommy!