modeling ourselves

think for every process/function a model can be built. striving for perfect predictability, the refining processes would help us understand the process itself.

we should try to intentionally better ourselves, and in order to be successful at self-improvement, and to even be able to make meaningful decisions as to what ways/directions we would like to improve ourselves, we should get to know and understand ourselves better by building models of our societies, personalities, psyches, stereotypes/archetypes, organizations, races, ppl who like the same kinds of music, etc.

we should teach our kids in school about people's personalities and psyches, what makes different ppl tick. giving our kids an understanding of how they and their peers function, then giving them tools in the form of teaching them techniques/ways of handling their own selves as well as how to deal with others, they would be able to deal with all the shit that life throws at us

politics

everybody has things they agree with and disagree with. it would be good for everybody to be able to live in a world of their choosing, and not have to put up with living under a system and in conditions elected by an apparent or supposed majority.
one way something like that might be achieved would be the formation of many different mini-states, each with its own different rules, and then people could move to the one with the rules they agreed most with. maybe like city-states? and if they stopped liking it, they could just move out to one more to their liking. of course there would be problems with locations - some real estate would be more desirable than others. you'd have to set-up these states on unclaimed turf. also, as these states would grow and change, there would always be those individuals that would at some point become disenchanted with the change, and feel ripped off if they had to move after having put a lot of effort into building/developing the state. guess thats where politics and lobbying comes back into play.
also - which country would give up real estate to allow a new country to get established?
is there any unclaimed but habitable real estate left in the world? a community of like-minded enough ppl from all over the world could give it a good shot and have a chance of succeeding in such a place. you wanna be a communist? move to elbonia! wanna be a fascist? move to "das neues vaterland"! wanna be a rastafarian? move to zion! a vegetarian? soy bean republic is the place for you!
these mini states would develop economies, trade relations, maybe even arrangements with a neighbour state to the effect of: "we'll pay you this much per year in exchange for using ur healthcare, education, defense, and sewage systems".

what about some kind of "direct support" system, where you would only have access to utilities you'd pay taxes for: you can drive on roads if you pay the road tax or even just pay as you go! wait - thats capitalism - you only use what u pay for.

we're all connected :)

if we are the universe's way to learn about itself - then we, each of us is only here and as each of us is, thanks to everything that was before us. in an evolutionary sense, if it wasnt for the big bang and the evolution of every single thing, we wouldn't be here to "do our part". each sentient being is the uiverse's probe into the realm of sentience. at least as WE know it. it all expands as well as it can, and it will all fail if it cant cope with any one of the things thrown at it. any meme. any virus. any predator. any meteorite. how much can our planet's product survive? maybe life in the "doughnut" of the galaxy is the safest spot. in the galaxy. not when it comes to colisions with other galaxies. well, actually that too, probably.

wheels within wheels au naturel

 i'm thinking there's a difference in everything between any 2 ppl - including their sensitivity to (= ability to withstand the experience of) violence (within parameters acceptable to the wellbeing of the individual) - including simply viewing it. i guess individuals within the media have been able to find and probably unconsciously "push" the outer threshold of that sensitivity in a large enough "market", or simply percentage of population. for no apparent reason than profit, or some other unfortunate concept. i guess a percentage of the pop. gets some sort of guaranteed repeat gratification out of "thrill", and what more bankable sources of thrill are there than fear, revulsion, something adrenaline charged - and if we can connect some vague feeling of curiosity, as for example why would anyone do that, then u got a 2 pronged approach. how many more prongs are there? out of control memes and evolutionary processes... if a process is good enough - it will survive another day. it will be refined, join the ranks of those already there, and later be joined, and likely extinguished at a later date, by others. maybe not processes run amok, just temporary tangles and twists in energies, processes, whatever else you may have.

depending how much you zoom in or out, and/or really where in the scheme of things you fit, and how much you feel where you fit, is how much matters to you. things change all the time everywhere - some may matter to you, some to others, but i dont see how, or maybe just why, the objective - the whole picture, would matter to any ONE. maybe feeling is just a function, and maybe its only purpose is something like preservation of the group, the hive, the "school". now that it has a purpose, at any rate. it was probably another one of the immensity of possible expressions of the DNA "package". under these particular circumstances, at any rate. dormant and insignificant until enough individuals having this "pesky" set, when in a tight spot, found it to be a strength by turning out to be a way to increase the number of survivors when faced with adversity. might not help the individual, might even be a hindrance  but to the group, it meant survival in bigger numbers. and the next twist is the evolution of individuals who can "work the system", use this "feature" to better their own chances. u'd think they'd flourish after a while. but that would mean, and likely has meant - their doom. the only way these politicians and other possible "system workers" would be able to survive is as part of the organism, in the correct proportion. too many politicians, and there would be nobody left to do the actual work. adversity to a population is practically in a "politician"'s best interest, especially if he can make the populace believe that he knows the way out, and support him. i know i'm using the masculine. also, if the groups of ppl werent afraid of a situation, they wouldn't need to have someone know the way out as badly. i'm kinda stuck in a world view that at this point ppl are not that able, not that manipulative, as to actually cause these adversities, from the "danger" of the rise of a certain drug, to 9/11. i really hope i'm not just naive. how to verify that?

also, even if you have a plan, that may already be part of somebody else's plan.

seems like i often "just dont wanna do" things when i'm feeling uneasy/apprehensive about the thing, like i feel intimidated by the task in some way - either i figure its gonna be a lot of headache, grief, its gonna take forever, is very important, or holds a lot of weight in some respect.

and if sober, i'll procrastinate until the last minute - which i seem to do a LOT, with many things. or if i get high or drunk, then i'll do it. this is probably not good. also, the drinking way doesnt seem to work as well - i need to be more intoxicated, at which levels i tend to not be very proficient.

this sucks. i need to focus on making my life enjoyable. i hate not enjoying my life. this cannot continue.